Share this article Share 'Then I discovered it's actually "a thing",' she explains. They're called devotees and there's thousands of them online in specialist chat rooms. Leah started making videos on her laptop while she was still in hospital as she didn't want her disability to change her career Leah explained to Emily that most devotees would prefer to see a video of her rolling around on the floor than something overtly sexy Leah Caprice was working in the sex industry and making videos when she broke her back and is now wheelchair bound.
I wasn't ready to be all borning in a wheelchair and give it all up,' Leah tells Emily. I started working from my hospital bed. Emily is impressed that her video focuses on being sexy rather than on the disabled body.
I think that's great". They like you to use the words "dead legs", "floppy feet", and "struggling" or any synonym for that. Although she makes videos such as this 'flashing' scene, Leah admits that devotees prefer to see the struggle of disability Leah receives requests for videos of her doing everyday tasks such as showering, moisturising and getting dressed pictured 'It's like everything's such hard work. Everything's such a drama. It's not sex they want to see.
They want to see disability. Charlotte was born missing a hand, and in she discovered that her photo had been taken from Facebook and put on a porn site, where it was receiving obscene comments. She's also seen people photographing her covertly on the train and says she hates the 'voyeurism' and covertness that some devotees engage them, pointing out a video of people secretly filmed in public by someone called the 'cripple hunter'.
Emily's documentary revealed that a lot of disability porn doesn't necessarily show anything overtly sexual as the devotees are often simply turned on by the disability itself, such as an amputated limb pictured Another example of a picture branded pornographic by devotees simply shows a disabled woman moving around 'Some of these amputee devotees are extremely dangerous,' she says.
So they will create fake profiles, pretend to be fellow amputees. It's the emotional damage it does to people when they're at their most vulnerable. Emily speaks to several devotees online who try to give her an insight into why they find disability arousing. Emily wants to better understand what makes devotees tick and starts conversing with them online to figure out what it is about disability they find arousing 'My ultimate fantasy would be a lady whose a double amputee with one leg amputated above the knee and one leg below the knee,' one man tells her.
I like seeing them move around. I don't feel very good about that. She even goes all the way to New York to meet a male devotee called Gray in person, who meets her on condition that he can remain anonymous.
The married-father-of two's wife is unaware of his interest in disability. Charlotte Fielder pictured left who was awarded an MBE for her work supporting children with upper limb deficiencies, had her Facebook picture stolen and posted on a porn site where it receive obscene comments He tells her: I love seeing your feet and your legs.
I thought they were very sexy and very nice. When I was very young I realised I saw women with disabilties different to how other people did.
I saw beauty and femininity and other people might feel sorry for them. So there were many older girls with long leg braces or wheelchairs and I thought they were pretty sexy. Another man right confesses that his ultimate fantasy is a woman who is a double amputee as he likes the asymmetry Emily travels to New York to meet a married father called Gray who tells her that her feet and legs are sexy and describes a leg brace as being like a party dress.
As a child he was attracted to older girls who were in wheelchairs or wore leg braces because of polio Gray concludes: Emily seems taken aback when she enters her house to discover a wheelchair by her desk.
It kind of gets me in the mood, inspired to write dev stuff. The one thing that followed immediately was that I knew I couldn't let anybody know. There was something really horribly wrong about this and people would hate me if they knew.
One was visiting her grandparents in a nursing home and seeing people in wheelchairs. Another was watching the scene in Mary Poppins where an old man called Mr Dawes appears as Mr Dawes is taking Michael and Jane on a tour of the bank where he works. Mr Dawes walks with a cane and struggles to stay on his feet as he makes his way down some steps. It's still sexy, it's deeply imprinted on me,' Ruth admits. Dr Michael First, professor of clinical psychiatry at Columbia University, explains that devoteeism is an 'umbrella term'.
So it's a manic issue really,' he says. I don't orgasm without it. She wants to find out if it makes her feel empowered, feminine and sexy, or simply 'creeped out'. She's previously posted a request online for devotees to tell her what they would want to see in such a video, and has received a huge response. One man tells her: Less clothes as possible. Clear view of feet and legs. Some spasms would be great too. Emily decides that she's going to make her own video to experience the reaction from the community first hand A video of Emily transferring from her wheelchair to her car gets more than views on a porn site, but she decides that she would not want to fetishise her disability As she prepares for the video, she puts on make up but admits that it's 'pointless' and says it's just to make herself feel good, as she knows everyone will be focused on her feet and legs.
She films herself leaving the house and going to her car, where she uses her hands to pull herself in and then picks up her wheelchair from beside the car door.
Emily uploads the video to a porn site, where it receives more than views, but says that she feels uncomfortable with fetishising her disability. But it's not for me.